January 30, 2012 // 9:58 PM
It's nice hearing people say that they believe in you. Though, it is completely useless when you don't believe in yourself. This is shit. It's times like these when I wish I had someone to talk to. Well, of course I have people to talk to but they will just get sick of me. I can sense it. I will just talk to myself and wallow in self pity. :)
My first day back at school and I've already had a breakdown. LOL. I said I wouldn't do this but it's really hard to break a bad habit. Sadly, my I don't give a shit about anything or anyone attitude has completely disappeared. MY PIE GOT SQUASHED BEFORE I GOT TO EAT IT. I LOST THAT BOOK I WAS GOING TO VOLUNTARILY READ AND ENJOY. I AM INDECISIVE, LACK SELF ESTEEM AND I DON'T LIKE MYSELF VERY MUCH RIGHT NOW. On a more positive note... uh, we did barely any work today? Yah.
I've realised when people ask for advice, most often expect an answer? How do I know? Well, I asked someone for advice and disagreed with what they said... THIS HAS NOW SHOWN ME WHAT I ACTUALLY WANT.
I am going crazy and I don't know what to do... LMAO... this sounds like the start of a really bad love song. I can be the next Orlando. Luv ya, Rosalind.
Gonna cry myself a river. bai